enucleatus

i've decided that i need to live my life more simply.

if you keep on looking at all the details in your life, things start to get fuzzy on how you want them to proceed and all that happens is that you get upset at your own analysis of things. if we stick to the bigger picture, the already fuzzy qualitative response, then there is nothing to let us down or break our spirit. sometimes this won't be enough to suffice us, but if we had more we would just be unhappy. i think that the important aspect of living simply is to avoid unhappiness by having less in general. if we don't have something or we don't know about its existence, then we are happy in our poor ignorance.

think back to the times that you were truly happy. for me it was definitely when i was younger and innocent to the cruelty of our world. as i grew up, the more angry and unhappy i felt. i feel disconnected with that younger version of myself. i don't think that any of this is a coincidence. if we learn to live more simple lives then possibly we could find our selves closer to this child-like state of mind. we could find joy hidden in the smallest endeavors. we could see that our lives are not bound by the things we own. that the only restraints our lives hold onto are the ones that we place on them. we can learn to let life move at its own pace and that it doesn't matter if you happened to make a mistake along the way. there is no alternate path we could take. we are given one life and that's all we have. we can think about all the "maybes" and "what ifs" that we can handle, but if you really were able to turn back time, you would end up doing the same thing. i mean you have already done it once. what's to prevent you from doing it again if you repeated the same event over again? nothing. we are creatures of habit. thus we can't actually have alternate routes of our life once we have already chosen a path at the crossroads.

if we stick with the complex lifestyle full of details and quantities, we become unbalanced and overwhelmed by the excessiveness of the solution. we need to break it up, just to live it. we have our academic life, our social life, and our personal life categorized in order to make life manageable. however controlled it may seem, one or more of the categories will suffer moreso than just one of them. we become unbalanced, asymmetric creatures that can't focus on a point as the world spins out of control.


we learn that we must simply live above all else..