ante moto

sometimes it is just better for us to move on. we must pull ourselves out of the stationary moments of life that we get stuck in. everything in the world is moving on around us as we stay put. at some point we have to rejoin the motion. if we try to avoid its pull, we get drag around unwillingly or we get left behind. we can not dawdle in these matters. our lives get put on hold listening to elevator music as we decide whether or not we want to push ahead into the unknown.

right now it might be scary, thinking about how to move on. you know that it will be better once you do, but you don't want to leave behind the moment. you don't want to give up the hope, the dream, the unobtainable. sometimes we aren't that strong and we can't accept that what we have isn't real. we want to feel that our desires can be acquired. they can't. what we thought we had must end even when it didn't have a beginning. it isn't healthy to dwell in moments that will never exist outside of our mind's fantastical world. but how do we separate from this false world when it has been the only thing we have known? we can't exactly. i know. it all sounds contradictory. but what happens when we move on? we will still carry with us the wounds and sorrows of the past, of that moment in time. it can't be erased. but that doesn't mean that we can't figure out how to manipulate it until that moment can not affect us anymore. we become its master and we take back control of the moment.

but how can we take control of something that holds onto us so tightly as it is? there is no easy answer to this. maybe there will be some big revelation that will shock your system into giving up such nonexistent possibilities of the world. once this has been released, we control the situation again and we take back our lives. but if we don't get this shock to our world, then maybe we will just decide on our own that our lives will be better off without the hastle of these moments in time. that it wasn't our fault in the first place that this moment was not successful at all.

what ever happens, we will eventually climb out of this hole we have dug for ourselves. no longer are we pacing back and forth waiting for the decisions of others to determine what we do with ourselves. we determine our own path. we chose what happens to our story. we decide on where our lives carry us.

maybe we made mistakes as well. the basic fact is that none of it matters to anyone but us. we are here. we must not strive for dead lives. what was done can not be changed by all the wishing in the world..

all we need to remember is to keep moving forward.